Ramblings of a Model, Mother and Outspoken Weirdo

...Valentine!

Also V is for Vixie Vengeance, Valerie Vegas, Venus Star...the last burlesque show I performed in was filled with the letter V.

This was the show at Red Light Burlesque in Leicester I performed at on the 18th of February. It was quite nice to be away from the North East for a bit, and it wasn't like when I go to Gainsborough. Sadly my boyfriend's negative views of the place have rubbed off on me, swear I feel my stomach sink when I get there now.

Anyway, Leicester, seemed very clean, first pub I went into for lunch was virtually a chav free zone. The shopping centre and everything was just nice, didn't manage to find any places of cultural interest and I didn't have time for my Starbucks other than that I had a fab time there.

The lasses at this night were all fabulous, the dressing room was so small we were sort of on top of each other and all our stuff was overlapping so it's just as well we were all bloody lovely. I did two acts Rocky Horror (blue and my new one which has a loose Dominatrix theme but it really really needs some work, or I might ditch it altogether, although it was quite well received. I would love to perform down there for Venus Star again.

My next performance will be on the 17th of March, St Patrick's Day, the day after my birthday at Dixie's Dollhouse in Newcastle. Doing my California Gurls acts, need fresh lollipops after my fail in Durham which I am not even going to blog.

Just before Valentine's day I had a shoot with my fella, Nicholas Gray, it was just a quick two hour shoot at Studio 5000, I took far too much stuff as usual but we managed to get some good shots. I wore my hair straight because that's how he prefers me. I didn't really set out to get anything specific when I was there, just really wanted to use the bathroom set they have down there. I love how mucky and grungy it is.

Last time Nick was up we had a fab time, its generally most comfortable when we are at mine because we have a whole flats worth of space and we can make as much (ah-hem) noise as we like and have our own lounge space even though its not particularly comfortable. Also went to town before the shoot grabbed a burger and mooched to the Side Gallery and Baltic, stuff we generally do each time he is up.

Been cracking through long distance for almost 6 months now, complete hell, totally understand why they rarely work out. If I wasn't so stubborn and doubtful I could feel this way about anyone else, or find someone who just fits the way he does I would quit. I just have this feeling in my heart and guts that it is going to work out and I have to turn my patience up a notch and think positively. I really want to get his NG watermark tattooed on my wrist but he is making me wait until a more sensible juncture in our relationship, spoilsport.

Here are a couple of my favourite images from our shoot. We also did some implied nude but in my favourite shot you can see my cha-cha. Whoops.

Me and Mr Beau are very cute together, so much so in fact that I am gonna post a pic of us looking cute together! :)

Well it's here tomorrow, haven't got anything for Mr Le Beau nor made plans. Like I said he's never made the effort and I have ran out of juice to try anymore. My Nan was round today saying it was stuff like that was important for keeping a marriage working, me and my husband don't even exchange anniversary cards. We have planned to have a massive Star Wars themed party for our 10th Wedding anniversary in 2012 if we make it.


I have my heart set on an Able Grable Dream Girl for the P-A-R-T-Y but I spied this on Etsy and fell in love, I wouldn't have the figure for it and lets be honest other than for a Star Wars themed hoo-haa when would I wear it again?

I am trying to get my gear together for a Mother/Daughter Wonder Woman shoot with my Baby Vee! I think we would look awesome as Wonder Women. I got some cute star hotpants from Etsy and a long line bra in ivory which I am going to dye red and sew on gold bits. Problem with having mahoosive boobies. Just hope the dye takes.

I can't really talk about too much on here now there are too many family eyes who might read this. You know who you are....Dave.

...equivalent to 'Bah-Humbug' would be? 'Bah-token heart shaped box of chocs' doesn't quite have the same ring to it. Anyway the point I am trying to make is that Valentines Day doesn't feature for us anymore, when you have been together for 9 years it doesn't, hell we don't do anything for our wedding anniversary either, not because I am not sentimental but because the Mr isn't. I remember once when we rented a house from his ex's presents I found loads of love letters that he had wrote his ex and it proper peed me off. I asked how come you never did that for me, he answered 'I don't need to do that for you'. Thanks man.

Anyway imaginary scenario, I'm not married to Mr Le Beau, I am in a new relationship with super sensitive and romantic Mr Bailey Roth, we have been dating for a month or so and it's amazing. All that hot romance and stuff is there, he makes the effort, he's the perfect gent. He is taking me out on Valentines day and then we're going to walk along the beach barefoot and it's going to be at least 30^oC.

The main question is! What the hell would I wear for this? Mr Le Beau says I don't suit red but I like red, so I am going to wear red goddamn it!

I have been eyeing it up for ages so I'd probably get myself the delicious Bettie Page Peek-a-boo dress from amazing store and eye candy heaven Pin up Parade


I am getting a pair of Rocket Originals for my birthday but for this frock I'd go for the Georgia Red/Cream ones and I'd seek out some gorgeous Rose themed hair item!

Ah well a girl is allowed to dream.......